Life on the Crazy Train

I feel like i can't get off....and i REALLY really want to. Work was hectic tonight....had a bit of an accident. Fire. Near Chemicals. Scary. Luckily everyone is fine so no biggie. I think the guys about wet themselves however since they were the closest.
73 days till the wedding. I'm excited. Scared. Worried. Happy. Hopeful. And thousands of other emotions I can't even being to describe. I need to be packing up more of my stuff but i'm so wiped most of the time it just doesn't get done. I really jsut want to pack up my nicknacks, pictures, dvds, cat and leave the rest behind, but then thats such a waste. I wish we as a people weren't so materialistic.

On another note, I wish all the stories that are crammed in my head would either get out or work themselves into something good. So many bits and pieces in my imagination, I can't help thinking that if I only had the time to sit down and actually write something good might actually come out. I still haven't finished my childrens book, and i really do intend to submit that to a publisher but there is the part of me that fears rejection, that i think is just holding me back.

Ah well this was just a post of rantings really I suppose....stupid piano music making me actually slow down and think. Peas out for now peeps....yes....peas.

Transformers 2

LOVE LOVE LOVE this movie. I love Shia LaBeouf! I thought the movie was done really well and while I really REALLY don't remember the orginal series all that well it seemed like it had a good flow to it. Next up on the list of movies to see: Public Enemies (Johnny Depp here I come!)

hair today...gone tomorrow....(no not really tomorrow)

so i'm trying to find a "post-wedding" hair style and i like these both....the problem being i'm not sure how short i can actually get away with and i think i might want some sort of bang again.....any opinions?

i don't like gift registries

lol...so j and i did that the other day and good lord....i think that is one of the most stressful things you can do.....but its done now....and js parents are buying our bed and my parents are buying the washer dryer and i'm soooo freaking ready to move into the new place....oh and i found a couch that i am going to try to get bought before i move......sooo...essentially i'm going to move my books, dvds, tvs, computers, a chair, and all my clothes and hobbies and thats it....it'll be wierd not to move big things...anyway....totally ready to move and be happy.....four months and two weeks!! yeay!!!!

Am I a .....TREKIE!? *gulp*

I can't decide to tell you the truth. My friend has decided she is a full blown trekie.....but still I hesitate to call myself one as I'm still just in love with the movie really. I don't know...perhaps I should go back and watch some of the shows.....I might find that I like them more.....but I have a feeling it will still drive me up the wall to listen to William Shatner....pause....between....every.....word......anyway....just mulling things over right now. I'll let you know the outcome!

Whats in YOUR purse....

So i'm feeling a little kooky....and I wanted to know what was in YOUR purse.... in mine you can see.....and Ipod touch a cell phone three ink pens a pack of gum a set of headphones my flat wallet my change case and some wal mart gift cards....anyhooch....back to you!

X-Men Origins

Ok so tottally enjoyed this movie. Just got back from it and while I was semi-dissapointed with the digital graphics and what not (ex: wolverines claws.....sadly looked really fake sometimes) the movie in general was great! I soooo tottally wish Gambit had been in more of the X-Men movies...I love love love him and his powers......and ....I'm expectin another X-Men movie sometime within the next couple of years....I hope......at least it appears that way....anyway....just needed to gush about the movie....tottally fun.....just wish my girls would come visit me.....lol

So here is a quote for ya...

"Akira was tired of this argument. It was the same with everyone. Scythe, Carinna, even Gabriel seemed convinced that she was just different and that she wasn't wrong in some way. She felt wrong. She felt like she was a puzzle and someone had jammed a piece in where it didn't belong, leaving yet another piece missing."

yea i know its not much and your are probably just confused but I wanted to toss it out there.....

ok....so be kind...

REWIND!.....lol...anyway...since I have seem to lost my house keeper to a real world job I thought I would post this up here for her.....it's technically chapter two of my story but I feel it is the only one that can be currently read that .....doesn't give much away...so....if you girls would give me feedback i would appreciate it...yes I know its long....sorry.

Chapter 2

“Akira-san you have to stop this.” Scythe said. “It’s not heathly!”

“Wha….what’s …going to…happen?” Akira asked between sniffs. “Am….am I going to …..die of a broken….heart?”

Scythe chuckled. “No. But at least you still have your sense of humor.”

“I’m serious Scythe! What the hell is wrong with me?” Akira asked flinging another tissue in the trash. “Why can’t I be a little normal? Why do I have to be such….such a freak?!”

“You are NOT a freak!!” Scythe said grabbing Akira by the shoulders.

“You are hurting me Scythe.” Akira said almost monotone.

“Well damnit Akira, when are you going to get it through your thick head of yours? You are not a freak! You’re just……special.” Scythe told her with a crooked grin. “At least you are no more a freak than the rest of us.”

“Oh gee thanks. That makes me feel so much better.” Akira said shoving him off her bed. There was no thump when he should’ve hit the ground. Akira leaned over the side of the bed to glare at Scythe. “I really hate when you do that. It takes all the fun out of it when there is no satisfying thump.”

Scythe grinned up at her as he floated two inches about the ground. “Thump.” He said as he let out a laugh, floated higher and came to rest on the bed again. “See, you aren’t the only freak.”
“Yea but your freakiness is cool. And besides, you aren’t that freaky.” Akira said getting up and going to the mini-fridge she kept in her room. “Want one?”

“Ew…no thanks.” Scythe said making a face. “I don’t know how you drink that stuff cold….wait! What do you mean I am not that freaky?” He asked sitting up with a pout.

“Only you would be upset at not being freaky.” Akira muttered.

“What was that?” Scythe asked.

“I said I drink it cold because I can’t bite anything remember? And lets face it floating isn’t very freaky for a vampire.” Akira replied.

“Well neither is hearing voices. Haven’t you read ‘Twilight’?” Scythe asked her.

“It’s not the same thing and you know it.” Akira said dryly as she poured blood into a glass.

“Did Gabriel have any idea about why you can’t bite anything?” Scythe asked turning serious.

“No.” Akira replied frowning. She sat down in her reading chair before continuing. “Gabe thinks I need to go before the Triumvirate.”

“NO!” Scythe snarled. “He can’t be serious. The last one he sent before them was slaughtered before she could even speak!”

“You know it’s not the same, Scythe.” Akira said softly. “She broke the law. People found out, we could have all died!”

“She was family to me Akira!” Scythe said his eyes flashing from crystal blue to burning amber.

“I’m sorry. I know Syckle was important to you. My point was simply that it’s not the same. She wasn’t the only one lost either. Wulf is gone too.” Akira said hurt in her grass green eyes.

“I don’t know why you are so broken up over some…mongrel!” Scythe spit out.

“Enough!” Akira said her eyes now the hard amber color all vampires eyes were when they were hunting or angry. “Leave.”

“Scythe’s head snapped as if she had slapped him. “I’m sorry Akira, I just….”
“I said leave! Unlike you I grew up with Wulf and just because we got picked for different teams doesn’t make me hate him! Now get out!” Akira growled.

“I’m sorry nechan.” Scythe said closing the door behind him.

Akira braced herself for the voice this time. It left her alone until she was somewhere by herself but the instant no one was around it started in.

“Help me.”

“How am I supposed to help you when I don’t know who you are?” Akira said too exhausted to care that she was, essentially, talking to herself.

“He must be stopped! There isn’t much time left. He’s found the other two but he doesn’t know where you are!” The voice said. It was a feminine voice of that Akira was sure. She had started calling it ‘Voce’ because she needed a name to curse.

“Voce you have to give me more than that! The other two what?! Bears, ice cream cones, coats?! There are a million different things! How can I protect ‘it’ if I don’t know what ‘it’ is?!” Akira asked throwing up her hands in defeat.

“Be careful, night walker, even now he is hunting the other two. When he has them he will find you.” Voce said.

“Damnit Voce, stop with the riddles!” Akira growled.

There was a knock on Akiras door and just as suddenly as Voce came, she left.

“Akira? Is everything okay?” The words were muffled by the door but she still knew who it was.

I’m fine Cary. You can come in.” Akira said once again sitting in her chair. She was rubbing at her temples as the little vampire walked in.

Trapped forever at 14 Cary would have grown into a beauty give the chance. A rogue vampire took that chance from her over a hundred years ago.

As it was Cary’s existence was breaking the law. No one was supposed to turn anyone younger than 16. If anyone but Akira had found her, Cary would have been killed instantly.

To keep her safe Akira had lied to Gabe and said she was 16 and as far as she knew, she and Cary were the only ones who knew the truth. She had been tracking Wulf across the Siberian when she had stumbled across Cary’s beaten body.

New tears started then at the thought of Wulf. Gods how she missed him.

“Akira, no! Oh….please don’t cry! Alexi really isn’t worth it!” Cary said as she came to sit at Akiras feet. She moved so gracefully and so lightly it was like watching a dancer.

“Alexi? Oh Gods, I’d forgotten for a moment.” Akira said groaning as another stab of pain went through her at the memories of her latest embarrassing break up.

Akira had been sleeping with Alexi for months now and was more than just a little in love with the handsome Italian vampire. She should have left him long before now but it took seeing him with someone else before she did. Even then it was he, who had left her. She had told him to choose between her and the other vampress, Kelsey, she then begged and pleaded with him, even admitting that she was in love with him, before he had chosen Kelsey.

Of course Kelsey, wanting to brag about her victory over one of Gabriel’s chosen, had told everyone exactly what happened.

“How could I have been so stupid?! Everyone knows vampires aren’t monogamous, at least not for very long periods of time.” Akira said throwing her head back against the chair.

“I’m sorry I shouldn’t have brought it up. But if you weren’t crying about Alexi, who were you thinking about?” Cary asked.

Akira hesitated. She usually told Cary everything but telling her that the loss of a werewolf made her cry was a risk. It was unnatural. Sure they could get along but to mourn the death of one was all but unheard of.

“You were thinking about Uncle Wulf weren’t you?” Cary guessed.

Shocked into speechlessness Akira barely squeaked out “Uncle?”

“Well not in the real sense you know, but we did travel with him for a time and you always would tell me stories about the two of you, so I guess I started thinking of him as my uncle.” Cary hastily explained. “But Akira….you know Wulf wasn’t quite right there towards the end, don’t you?”

“What do you mean Carinna Romanovsky?” Akira asked her eyes momentarily flashing amber.

“Look, I liked Wulf but he just didn’t seem himself there towards the end.” Cary started. “He seemed almost wild sometimes. You never noticed it, he was always careful around you. I think it was because he truly loved you that he tried to hide it as much as he did.”

“How long?” Akira asked. What she really wanted to know was how long it had been that she hadn’t truly known her friend.

“A year…maybe two. Time passes so swiftly that I lose track.” Cary said softly.

“You’re insane! Are you honestly expecting me to believe that I didn’t know my best friend for two years?!” Akira asked her eyes burning amber.

“I think I should go.” Cary said standing up slowly and backing toward the door.

The hurt in Cary’s eyes sapped Akira’s anger. “No, Cary, wait. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have snapped at you. It’s just really hard for me to believe I didn’t know Wulf, I mean really know him, for over two years.”

“Think about it for a moment Akira. You didn’t spend near as much time with him in the last few years and when you did, it was like…like pushing magnets with opposite polarities together. You didn’t fight but you weren’t close anymore either. I think Wulf was keeping it that way on purpose, but I also think you subconsciously knew something was wrong.” Cary said once again kneeling at Akiras’ feet.

“Cary I…I’m sorry I think I need to rest.” Akira said rising from her chair.

“I’m sorry Akira, I didn’t mean to upset you.” Cary said opening the door.\

“It’s alright Cary. It’s just been a long day. I’ll see you in a few hours.” Akira said shutting the door behind the small girl. “Voce!! Voce answer me!!”

“You do not command me night walker!” Voce said and for the first time Akira hear some sort of emotion in her voice.

“Are you angry Voce?” Akira asked lifting an eyebrow.

“You don’t know who I am but do not test me child. What do you need?” Voce asked once again becoming the subdued voice Akira had grown used to.

“Wulf.” Akira simply said.

“What about him? The moon child is not my concern.” Voce stated.

“Was he killed because of me?” Akira asked almost too low to hear, afraid of the answer.

“The moon child died because of himself and no one else.” Voce replied. “The young night walker was right however. The moon child was not the person you knew.”

“How is that even possible? I would have noticed! Wouldn’t I?” Akira asked.

“Sometimes the things right in front of us are hardest to see. Know this: there is nothing you could have done to save the moon child. His path was set.” Voce told her.

“Was it because of Syckle?” Akira asked. The question had been burning in her mind for the last six months.

“The loss of the night walker was an…unintended accident. Someone interfered where they shouldn’t have. “Voce said a sour edge to her voice.

“Who are you Voce?” Akira asked.

“I need your help. That’s all you need to know.” Voce said.
Akira could tell she was actually alone for the first time in two dozen years.

so don't laugh.....

But I think I might try to have a childrens book published. I've been wanting to for a while and I've found a publishing agent that specializes in childrens books so I thought "ya know....I'm never gonna know unless I try." so as soon as I finish revising it I think I'm gonna try.....nothing will happen I'm sure but I need to try....anyway....just wanted to get that out there....

Blog change!

Ok so seeing as how I never blog about my life I decided to give this place a purpose...I am going to turn this into a blog about book reviews! yeay!!! I'm working on a book called The Tokaido Road and it will be my first review as soon as it is done followed by The Vampires Bride......if you have a book you would like reviewed post it in the comments and I will try to work it in. If you are one of my two watchers....lol...well i suppose you can ask too but seriously....lol....anyway...peace out!

Holy Crap!!

I won I won!!! I won Gena's new book! Yeay for mee!!!!!! lol...don't worry kara of course you'll get to read it!! lol.....much love to Gena!!!

How sad am I?.....

so very sad......not only did my veoh get all screwy to where I cant find anything i want anymore but my long time enabler bleachexile.com has went to a paying members only site....*sigh* no more bleach....and just when we were getting to old-style Urahara.......*sigh* must figure something out....

I think.....

my housekeeper gave up on me.....:(  *sigh*

I wanna...

Go take pictures!!!!  GAH!  This is killing me!!  Prime opportunity to take beautiful pictures and I live in town!!    Stupid snow plows!!  Didn't even give me a chance to take perty pictures!   and well i don't even want to attempt country roads......*sigh*  guess no pictures for me.....

p.s.  I don't wanna go to work...i wanna play in the snow!

I remembered this morning.....

Exactly WHY I don't like school!!! EIGHT FREAKING OCLOCK IN THE MORNING!!! and to top it off its Advanced keyboarding so i actually HAVE to do something in class. Hopefully I'm still alive at the end of 14 weeks. Sheesh....i think I need to have my head examined. At least I have most of the wedding stuff done (that can/ needs to be). I think if I had to worry about that too i would probably sit down and cry.....still might.....I'm insane.......*sigh* oh well....need to run to wal-mart before the next class. L8RS!